Dreamed It. Lived It. ~A Future Board That WORKS!

I’m so excited.  Finally! I’ve been waiting for some inspiration and something that would take my dream to the next level, and like always fear has been holding me back.  The last six months, I’ve felt so uninspired. Even wondering if all that I’ve been working on with my books, blog, speaking etc was doing any good.  Sometimes when you get close to your dream coming true, you lose sight of it. And I think that’s what I’ve done the last few months. I’ve known that it would take some risks on my part to get me to the next level that I want to be at, and I’ve been scared to take those risks.

My Reality Board

 

But screw it, I’ve come this far! I’m not about to give up now! For almost two years readers and followers of my Youtube videos and blog have been asking me to do some type of vision board workshops and live conference calls/webcasts. I’ve always known that I could do these things and they have been in my long term plan, but I’ve been scared to just make that jump and do it. Partly because at the end of the day I’m just a single mom.  And of course that makes me always feel like what I have to say is not revolutionary, and you know what it’s not. Most of it is common sense. I get that. But I also know that this conviction and calling has chosen me, and weather I’m “qualified” or not, I have a message and a story to share that I believe with ALL MY HEART will change someones life.  And so that’s why at each stage of this journey I bite the bullet and take the leap into unknown water.

What I have to share is a simple way that anyone can change their life if they really want to. I have proof that the easy steps I’ve used can work for anyone. I have thousands of readers who’ve shared their stories with me over the past few years, and who’ve used my tools and coaching to get results that have transformed their lives too. And NOTHING in the world feels better then that.

So having said that, I’m so excited to say…..

I’m going to be hosting my

FIRST EVER LIVE CONFERENCE CALL!!!
On Tuesday Aug 20th at 6:00 PM Pacific Time.

The one hour call is FREE and I’m not selling ANYTHINGIf you’d like to be on the call, email me to reserve your space at believeloa @ gmail . com and I’ll send you the dial in number. Space is limited on the call so do it ASAP.  I will leave the call open for your live questions as well. So this is your chance to ask me anything and hear my “Hustle.Believe.Receive. Key’s to Success” message first hand. Please share this info with your friends and family or who ever you know that could use a little inspiration/motivation and real life “anything can happen” message.

I’m also now taking bookings for my DREAM IT. LIVE IT. party/ Future Board workshops.  If you don’t live in the Portland Oregon area but would like me to come give a 1/2 day workshop to your friends/family/business I will gladly come for just the cost of travel.  In the workshop we will learn the steps to success using Hustle.Believe.Receive. and we’ll create our vision boards ones that will be your first step to manifesting your new life! email me for booking or more info believeloa @ gmail com

 

 
 

Click HERE to pre-order my book #HustleBelieveReceive which gives my 8 steps to success to changing your life and living your dream. Not all “law of attraction” teaching works, most don’t in fact. But over the last 5 years I’ve learned what does and how to quickly and easily apply it to get fast, life changing results. LEARN MORE. 

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Get Out Of My Way.

Get out of my way.

I’ve been compared to a bull in a china shop, more than once. This is not something I say with pride. It’s something I say realizing that some how some way, I need to tame that bull. I’ve also been told on occasion that I get in my own way, and block my own happiness. These are not fun things to hear about yourself, especially when you’re working diligently to daily become a better person and curb the parts of yourself that you don’t really like.

bull in a china shop
Yeah… I’m the Bull in a china shop.

I’m a tough bitch. In a way I think I’ve had to be that to survive all I’ve been through in my 38 years on this planet. When the going gets tough the tough get going, right? So I’ve plowed through tough situation after tough situation and each time I add a layer of raw hide to my skin.  Until it’s thick enough to repel even the ones I want to attract. It’s not intentional. It’s the opposite of that in fact. I try to stay open and unguarded but the truth is that when I feel threatened or like someone is about to hurt me, I jump from the building before they have the chance to push me.  And what I’m learning is that not everyone was trying to push me off the building. Maybe they were just trying to get close to me. It’s hard to tell the difference when you’re so used to protecting yourself.  So used to not needing anyone.

The truth is I, like everyone else on the planet do need the people in my life who are there to get close to me. And I need to get better at learning to tell the difference between the pushers and the supporters. It’s a hard line for me to walk. Because, especially with men, I feel like if I let them support me in any way, that makes me weak.  I can kinda see how that’s a messed up philosophy. I don’t want to lean on a man emotionally because I don’t want to miss him when he’s gone.  And someplace deep inside me says he will eventually leave, and so I push him until he does. I’d never even consider leaning on a man to support me financially, to me that would be the ultimate disgrace. And sure I can see that has some fucked up logic as well.

My old boss once told me “Sarah just because you believe in something, and are passionate about it, doesn’t mean you have to be a bull in a china shop and mow everyone else down”.  I was of course offended at first, but a week later I put up a picture of a bull destroying a china shop on my office wall to remind me to be diplomatic and not an asshole.

I can still be an asshole. I can still say, like I did to a man I care deeply for… peace out, for no apparent reason. I still have the flight instinct stronger than the one that should stay and fight for what I want. But at least now I can see it.  At least now I am open to try to fix it. I may never get this whole thing down right. I may be destined to be alone, but I’m gonna always try to listen to those around me who can call me on my shit, and help correct me when I’ve let my thick hide take over and block my happiness.

Sarah… get out of my way. 

bull in a china shop HBR
So gonna get to this place one day…

 

Sarah Centrella is the author of the book Hustle Believe Receive which teaches you how to apply the #HBRMethod to change your life and live your dream.

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I Want More.

I want more.

Have you ever felt, well… unsatisfied? Not unhappy. Not depressed. Not stressed. Just restless and an underlying feeling that there has got to be more to life than this? I guess I just want more.  I want it all.

I’m not complaining, I’m so happy to be out of Seattle and back where life is easier.  I’m so grateful for that, trust me. And the sun has shone hot every single day since moving back to Portland. But still there is this nagging feeling that I can’t shake, that I’ve disappointed myself.  It feels like I’ve taken two steps backward rather than forward.  Maybe because going back home always feels that way to some degree, regardless of why.  But I can’t shake the feeling that I failed in some way. Even though I always knew Seattle was not a move I wanted to make, but one I had to at the time, I’d still left. I’d gone somewhere and did something unexpected, difficult and I’d succeeded at it.


Coming back, just makes me feel like I failed somehow.  Like my real goal was to get all the way gone, and instead my wings were clipped and I took the easy option once again.  To make matters worse my bestie is moving to Washington DC, and my life long bestie is moving to NYC. The two cities I’ve always dreamed of living in, and here I am. Stuck in the North West.

Sometimes I wish life was less complicated.  That I could have the freedom to follow my true hearts desire.  Sometimes I wish I didn’t have to endlessly sacrifice and could just begin living the life I feel I’ve spent all of mine preparing for.  Sometimes I wish all the work I’ve put into my passion, writing/speaking/documentary/books would just pay off already.  That it would go somewhere, turn into something.

Being a single mom with three kids, nothing is ever easy, or simple. It will always take extra courage, faith and preparation.  But nothing is impossible right?

 

Sarah Centrella is the author of the book Hustle Believe Receive which teaches you how to apply the #HBRMethod to change your life and live your dream.

I’m Baaaaack!!!

I’m back!

Last week the kids and I moved back to our original home Portland Oregon. Damn it feels good to be

ahhhhh

home after 18 very difficult months in Seattle.  It’s amazing what having friends and family around can do to uplift your spirits and make you feel at home.

Living in Seattle was the most isolating, depressing and difficult time of my life. It had it’s benefits, I was able to write my book and focus on my passion, and was able to be successful in my career (day job), but other then that it was, hell.

Since coming back last week, the kids have had play dates every day, we’ve had friends and family over and the sun has been shining in full force.  It’s just more proof for me that when you set a goal, work your ass of to achieve it and let nothing stand in your way, that anything is possible. From the start of moving to Seattle, I gave myself a two year max, with that goal in mind I worked hard at my job to gain success and financial stability so that within the time I’d set I could move back home.  I did it in 18 months.  Set a goal, believe you will accomplish it, and then work your ass off to get there, you WILL get there.

Never quit. Happiness is waiting.

The new pad..
Kids hiking this weekend near our house
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Shopping at our favorite farmers market

 

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kids finally get to have some play dates!

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Sarah Centrella is the author of the book Hustle Believe Receive which teaches you how to apply the #HBRMethod to change your life and live your dream.

Parenting: Epic Fail.

My parenting epic fail.

The worst feeling ever as a parent is to let your child down. I try so hard to limit that disappointment for my kids because so many outside sources will, and have disappointed them already. So I try at all costs to make sure that it’s at least not coming from me.  But life is life right? Shit happens and no one’s perfect.

Today I let my baby girls down. My office is roughly 90 minutes from home/their school and their kindergarten graduation was at 2:15 today, in the middle of a work day. I left work as soon as I could slip out (three hours early) and faced the ridiculous stop and go traffic that is constant in Seattle. I sped breaking all kinds of laws whenever possible, but the ceremony was scheduled for only 30 minutes.  There was just no way I could make it in time. I parked as all the other parents were streaming out of the school with their graduates, gifts in hand.  The front desk ladies gave me the look of sheer disappointment, and said I could go get the girls from class, that’s where the kids who’s parents hadn’t come to the ceremony were awaiting pickup.  I ran back to the girls classes, and both of their teachers gave me that look, the one that said; how could you? Who does that? Miss their kids Kindergarten graduation? 

I fought back tears when I gave the girls big hugs and told them I tried, did all I could to get there in time; “It’s OK Mama” they said, but their faces looked broken. I’ve never missed anything they’ve done before. “You weren’t there Mama, when we looked out we didn’t see Kanen or you. We had no family.”

How do you explain to two six year olds, that you tried? That you took off work early, that you broke speed limits, did your best, when all they will remember is that my mama didn’t come to my graduation. And as a parent, as a single parent, how do you forgive yourself?

As a single parent, one in my specific situation with no family and no friends within 200 miles, when you can’t be there, that means no one can be there.  No aunts, uncles, grandparents. That’s so much fucking pressure. And the only thing they will remember is, I wasn’t there. 

my little graduates….

And then I’m reading my son’s essays with him, and we come across one about basketball, and secretly I get excited.  See basketball is our thing.  We watch it together, we play it together.  I’m out on the court guarding him, helping him work on his free throws, coaching his mental game.  I’m at all his games, pay for all his team stuff, buy his shoes, support his passion, take him to NBA and college games, introduce him to his favorite players. Basketball is our thing.

And I read it out loud to him, fighting back the emotion of reading how he “learned to play from his dad, and how he wants to grow up and play like his dad”.  No mention of all the time him and I devote to the sport, or me at all.  And it stings, and I’m trying to make sure my voice stays steady as I read, that it wont betray me. Because I know his dad doesn’t play with him, I know he plays alone when he visits there.  Accept for the rare occasion when he spends a few minutes with his son, those are the days when I pick my son up from a visit and he’s beaming; “papa played basketball with me today!” My heart breaks for him.

Day’s like today make being a single parent seem so fucking unfair.  They are the day’s when you wish you could explain to your kids the real deal, get them to see it through your eyes, but you know you can’t and that it’s not your place.  You just sit back and send up a prayer and hope to God that what they remember is all the times you are there for them, all the events you never missed, all the practices you left work early to get them to, and the concerts you moved business trips to be sure you could sit front row. You pray, and try not to think of what an epic fail you feel like on days like these.

 

Sarah Centrella is the author of the book Hustle Believe Receive which teaches you how to apply the #HBRMethod to change your life and live your dream.

Long Live Love.

Long live love.

I’ve always said, and it’s posted on my wall at work “if you don’t know what you want, how would you

recognize it when you’ve got it?”  It’s been more than a motto to me, it’s been the way I’ve created my new life, with intention and purpose, and total deliberation. I’ve taken the time to examine in detail what I want in every category of my life the past few years, and I am constantly blown away by how accurately it’s manifested in my life.

Love is no exception.  It started with a blog entry that I posted in March of 2010, called “What I Want”.  I knew I needed that wish to go out into the Universe if I expected to draw it to me.  So I made my wish list.

The past few years love has looked much more like heartbreak.  It’s chewed me up and spit me out in the most unthinkable ways.  I found myself in a Groundhog Day situation, with no mater who it was that I tried to date.  The same bullshit over and over. The same disrespect. The same dysfunction.  The same lowering of my standards and putting up with things I knew I should not.

But I couldn’t let it go.  For some reason all that mess, and all that crap and drama was comfortable to me, and leaving it all behind seemed so terrifying. It meant I’d truly have to be alone. So I clung to it, knowing it didn’t serve me.

Then as I slowly began to find that love in myself and take it away from those undeserving leaches, I began to find what I’d always looked for… peace. Stillness, acceptance and genuine personal happiness. Not given to me by anyone.  Not granted to me by a man.  When it comes from within you no one can give it to you, and no one can take it from you.

I began to see that when I was really ready, I didn’t need to stress about the how, or the when, I could turn that noise over to powers bigger than me, and just live. And like everyone always says, when you least expect it, he will find you.

I can’t predict the future, but I can tell you that when I re-read my post from a few months ago, A Letter to My Future Husband I cried.  It’s as if I wrote it to him directly, on every count, yet I wrote it three months before I ever met him or knew he existed.  But I can tell you that I knew exactly what I was waiting for, and it’s as if I wrote him into life.  Like I’ve always known him because I’ve always pictured so clearly the type of man he would be.  He’s all that but so much better, because he’s real.  And though I want to pinch myself every day, I know that whatever the future holds the Universe answered my ultimate wish and delivered him to me.  I manifested him, exactly as I’d always pictured, which let’s me know that it’s all going to be okay. I don’t have to fight it anymore. For the first time ever, there is no fear, just happiness in the moment.  I can finally sit back and enjoy this much awaited blessing and look forward to whatever the future might bring.

It’s the ultimate proof to me that, anything is possible child, anything can be. 

Don’t ever give up on your dream.  Don’t ever settle for what you know is not right for you.  Don’t ever sell yourself short. If you have a vision for any part of your life, do the work and believe it will come. Have the courage to walk away rather than chose dysfunction and unhappiness.  Have the courage to trust that when you are ready, your dream will come to you. Have the faith to know you will one day live that dream, and when it comes have the good sense to be grateful for your amazing blessing.

Long live dreams.

Long live love.

Long live butterflies.

 

Sarah Centrella is the author of the book Hustle Believe Receive which teaches you how to apply the #HBRMethod to change your life and live your dream.

Manifest Love.

 

For the past year or so, I’ve not dated. I’ve taken this time to write my book, focus on my career, my

children and finding love within and for myself.  It’s been a difficult journey at times, and certainly lonely in the beginning.  But over time, I began working through my past, as I began writing my memoir last year. With each revelation I got closer and closer to my own truth.

With each phase of my journey, I began to slowly let go of the people in my life who kept me tethered to a past I was ready to leave behind.  I cut the ties that bound me, and the ones that were unhealthy, and my circle kept shrinking.  But it felt good. I felt strong for turning my back on the negative drama and allowing room for positive energy.

I spent time soul searching, going deep, examining all the things that I’d not wanted to see about myself and my past, and little by little forgiving them and setting them free.  And then I found new mantra’s like “I am open to receiving love. I am loved.” And I added “He will find me” to my wall at work, under a printout of my blog post A Letter to My Future Husband.

I decided I was done searching, done being restless.  That the peace and love and safety I’d always looked for was inside me all along.  And I began to really trust that the Universe would have my back someday when I was ready; and so… I just let go. Let go of the struggle.

I went to yoga and for the first time tried Camel Pose (a pose that literally opens and stretches the

Camel Pose

heart muscle).  I realized I hadn’t even tried that pose since I was married, six years ago.  And the first time I tried it, I could feel my chest expanding and what felt like my heart muscle tearing, like an old piece of leather being pulled apart. It was actually painful.  When I laid down after the pose, I let the tears fall through the sweat onto my towel and I knew, I’d just taken a giant step in the right direction.

I knew that for him to find me I needed all the other crap and clutter and distractions out of my life for good. I needed to be able to get through my days alone and be happy.  I needed not to “need anyone”.  I needed to KNOW he was on his way, and I needed to embrace all the moments of my life that are perfect and beautiful just the way they are.  I needed to find peace in the knowledge that he may never come, and happiness in this moment regardless.

I am finally there.  The last few months have been so freeing, as I’ve moved through this process.  And then I read The Alchemist and I felt like everything I’d been working on had led me up to that point.  It made everything crystal clear.  It quieted my fear, and took my process to a deeper level.   It allowed me to finally let go of a dream I’d held onto for two years, for a dysfunctional relationship. And I felt relief and peace fill me from the inside out.  And then I surrendered my remaining fear, which had been a security blanket for so long.

The next day, at a dinner party… he found me. 

 

 

Click HERE to pre-order my book #HustleBelieveReceive which gives my 8 steps to success to changing your life and living your dream. Not all “law of attraction” teaching works, in fact most don’t.  But over the last 5 years I’ve learned what does and how to quickly and easily apply it to get fast, life changing results. Learn more about my #HBRMethod for success.  

Oh So Random

Oh so random.

You know that moment when you can feel the earth beneath your feet start to shift? The one when you know your life is about to change?

Yeah, I’m having one of those moments.  Have been for the past few weeks.  It’s a good thing though, a great feeling.  Like that excitement you got in the bottom of your stomach when you were a kid on Christmas Eve, waiting to see what kind of magic the morning would hold.  You know something epic is about to happen and it’s going to change your life in a magical way, your just waiting to see what it is.

I’ve been waiting for that moment for a hot minute. And in pieces, some large chunks and some little omens, it has been coming my way.  I’m getting ready to move back to Portland next month, and I’m so excited to be around my friends and family, finally, after a year and a half isolated and alone in Seattle.  That alone has me gitty.

But it’s the moments when you see the universe take a shift and you watch it make two forces collide that are the most fun.  It’s hard to keep your mouth shut and not trample on the moment with glee, but there are moments for trampling and moments for internal smiles….just know… I’m also silently trampling. 

This is a random post because  sometimes you just gotta blog about silly random shit that makes you laugh, and you gotta share your day with someone… so here are a few randomly awesome moments from my day… enjoy.

 
Random  convo with my girls

 

… the Universe is an amazing force…Manifest that!
That about sums up my day…. Cheers!

Sarah Centrella is the author of the book Hustle Believe Receive which teaches you how to apply the #HBRMethod to change your life and live your dream.

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